"What's your biggest fear?"
It's the most frightening question for one reason.
I don't mind telling you, but as usual my answer won't be conventional.
It isn't "dying alone", because we all do.
It isn't "settling for less", because I've done it and I overcame it.
It isn't "telling someone I like them and being rejected", because I also have done it; it hurt, but it passed.
It isn't "never finding anyone for me", because I can give me what I need and want.
It isn't "I'm terrified of frogs and toads", because it meant that other people prioritized the needs of others and never mine.
It isn't "losing you", although it would shatter me, I'm used to lose people, so I know the deal.
It isn't "to keep putting other persons needs before mine" nor "losing myself, again", because I know how to bring me back due to countless times I've done it.
It isn't "feeling like I'm not good enough", I would be totally lying and shrinking myself.
And of course it isn't "shrinking myself for the convinience of others", not anymore.
Those aren't my current biggest fears, but my old ones, that showed me lessons to move pass them.
So, my biggest current fear is to stop moving by it.
Because fear has been the pilot for most of my life, but not for too long now.
So maybe, if you dare to ask me this question I might nuance it.
My biggest fear, in this moment, is doing things differently as I currently do, but tomorrow I might be afraid of having insomnia every time I don't let fear drive me.
